30th april 2008
remember the recent walk home when i just kept silent.
and i know you were trying to cover up that silence by telling me things about your school.
but knowing myself and acknowledging how i was feeling, i could not bring myself to speak any sense to you.
when you smsed me that night and the next day you asked if i want meet you, i was beaming ear to ear.
but i just could not deny myself that it was a disappointment.
the situation we are in, its burning a hole in my heart.
i tried to make my way to you. but still i feel so lost.
despite the close distance, its as if we are drifting apart.
and you are putting me in the biggest uncertainty i could ever felt.
i am trying very hard to erase off the darkest feeling in me.
cause its really pulling me way down for so long.
its seventeen more days to our fifth year.
and when you tell me you need time, just how long?
and when you say i love you, which part of the statement do you really mean it?
and if you say u mean every bit of it, then why the indifferent attitude in you and towards me?
to the rest, apologies for the uninteresting entry.
